It’s a Sunday morning before stake conference. I had a great day yesterday as I got to spend a lot of time with family and kids. All of the kids won their basketball game, and I did a good job at being present by not being on my phone all the time.
This week I took some time to go through my mission journals, and it didn’t help some of my questions about revelation. It does seem like I felt I had received revelation that my mission president was correct and we were going to see a change in the mission, which did not happen. It confuses me and makes me hesitate to have faith in church leaders when they claim to be led by the spirit.
I especially have been thinking about this as a bishop and as the church is changing. I think the changes are positive, like having adults in the room for children interviews, but they seem to acknowledge a systemic realization that adults, even leaders, do bad things. My experiences with leaders making poor choices is making it difficult for me to trust leaders in the way I used to trust them,
But I continue to realize that I’ve made promises to God and my wife, which gets me through.